BookReview
Reviewed By: Terri Schleuder

Breaker Bar

EXPECTING ADAM

By: Martha Beck



I bought this book in December. A friend recommended it highly. I usually steer clear of books about "special" children; prefering not to dwell on the heartbreak and tragedy most of them center on. So it was June when I finally started reading the book. From the first page I was hooked. At turns I laughed, I cried, but most of all I understood!

The story chronicles the second pregnancy of John and Martha Beck, at the time, both were Harvard graduate students, who had earned two degrees apiece and were hard at work on their P.H.D.'s Both were on the fast track academically and careerwise. Five months into her pregnancy, a pregnancy from Hell I might add, an amnieocentisis revealed the little boy she carried had Downs Syndrome.

Though most of the academic and medical community encouraged them to abort the fetus; so not to endager their "sterling" career paths; the Becks opted to keep the baby. The book is filled with metaphysical, psychic, and spiritual happenings, "angels" if you will, that encourage and comfort the Becks. In the the midst of dispair and uncertainty, the Becks are surrounded by peace, love, and protection, that can only be described as "other worldly". But more then that, during the months preceeding the birth of Adam, the Becks experience their own "rebirth". The ability to step back and look at the world, and evaluate what really matters, and what doesn't. To see people and situations as they really are.

Adam's birth gifted them with the opportunity to slow down and find beauty in the ordinary. Referring to Adam, Martha beautifully states,"In his strange and not quite human way, he is constantly reminding me that real magic doesn't come from achieving the perfect appearance, from being Cinderella at the ball with both glass slippers and a killer hairstyle. The real magic is in the pumpkin, in the mice, in the moonlight, not beyond ordinary life, but within."

For me this book affirmed what every parent of every "special" child intuitively knows. These children are wonderful gifts. That within the pain, the dispair, the tears is a beauty so profound it is life altering. Martha concludes her insightful book, "It hurts everytime people look at Adam and see only the deformity of their own perceptions, instead of the beauty before their eyes. But more and more, I feel this pain not for my son, but for the people who are too blind to see him. The lessons I have learned from Adam have hurt more than just about anything else I have felt in my life. And it's been worth it, a thousand times over."

This book is a must read for any parent of a "special" child. I can't recommend it highly enough.



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